丽仪

2009-05-05T16:14:00.002+08:00

I'm walking alone,
giving up bit by bit.
one day,I'll stand strong like I used to be.
I hate love.

2009-03-29T22:46:00.002+08:00

I've moved to
www.bu-riedlove.blogspot.com
this blog will be left here without updating anymore.

2009-03-15T00:58:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since I've updated.

Been really grateful to some people who always are there for me whenever I'm feeling sad,
yeaps especially my darlings and Sister and Co.

I hate blogging lahs,because something's wrong with blogger,
everytime i want publish,it takes half an hour or more.
yeaps and this blog will be the last post,
I'm working on a new private blog.
anyone want the link get from me and your e-mail to get permission to access.

Today went rebond hair with Sylvia and Meiyi,
Mine the longest time ok,
damn bored,
but overall still ok lahs de rebond just that now,my fringe is like small kid,
hahaha and meiyi's too :x
we laughed at each other's fringe.
bye!

I'm tired,now,I feel ignorant to this love.

2009-03-08T13:46:00.000+08:00

我现在没什么梦想，没什么希望，没什么东西值得渴望.
只想老天爷，会让我变得，开心一点。
现在的我根本不开心，
我需要时间，忘记。

2009-03-04T21:45:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling v down right now)':
I wished I could have someone to cry to..

Please,shoot me down.

2009-03-02T22:26:00.001+08:00

I hope you know how much courage it takes,
To make my heart beat for you again.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhs!
I am bored!
BYE!

2009-02-26T22:47:00.002+08:00

Hey!I am back (:
Today damn unlucky man,
In school have asthma attack,must thank Mr Theeru,Ms chiau,Mr chua and 1 more staff,2 counsellor,1 Malay teacher.
If not I might have die . . .

After that went baby's house wake him up because my maid have to go check up and I cannot be alone.

damnnnnnnn it.I hate this man ):
stupid hypocrites.

anyway people must support my sis blogshop (:
the url is: www.ourteenyweeny.blogspot.com
must ahhhhhhhhs.
I not replying tags today lazy.
bye I'm mapling.tomorrow MC (:

2009-02-23T22:34:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PANG LEE MUN JASLIN.
hahahaha! Jie,sorry no present.
I pok liao oks.
You better come see this.
Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to you~.
shiok liao lorhs,17 years old liaos. -.-
Last long with ERIC.
lols!

oh god damn it,
I'm sick of hypocrites .
Fuck you man.
I don't need friends like you all.
sick of it.
Leave me alone from today onwards.

2009-02-19T22:49:00.004+08:00

sighs,I'm really feeling very tired and stress.
How I wished I could have a listening ear.

Study and study,I can't even concentrate,
sometimes study halfway,There I go again,crying secretly.
I don't know whats wrong with me these days.

People often said,N level only what.
If only these people know,how much it means to me.
I've been told I'm stupid just because I'm in normal academic stream,By lots of people.even my parents,I'm trying so hard to prove it to them but I don't know why I gave myself too much stress.
I have to think of lots of things,studies,relationships,problems with family and friends.

Gosh,I don't know how long can I endure all these.
Seriously,In school,we have SRP,then we have CCA how come this school doesn't know we're not robots,and we need REST.
I detest school now,feeling damn tired.
I've been skipping CCA not because of anything but I'm really tired,I need rest you know ):

sighs,I've been rather moody these days,I hate people complaining into my ears,because I seriously is thinking of my own stuffs nowadays.
and fuck those people,HELLO,i know you all got family,although we friends,can you spare a thought for me who has just a empty shell for family?

I hate it when you say so much you know,
I'm sick and tired of it,
one day I'll burst out everything.
I've told you all before,I can endure,but once I can't take it,I'll make you suffer.

I don't know,I'm really feeling stress ):
cried to sleep every time,
but I know,there's always people worser than me (:

and gosh,I contacted my counselor,
I'll be going for outside-counseling again,
I need those pills.

ps:I'm sick of it,the whole thing going over again and again.

Lord,I pray for Farhan to get well,Its unfair you know,He's always so active,laughing,smiling and then his mother suffers.
please,let him recover,I've been classmates with him,I didn't know he was having health problems,as he was always laughing and smiling.
Lord,I know,in life,there's a lot of ups and downs,but don't you think its unfair for his parents and friends to lose someone who is so optimistic in life?
Lord,please,let him recover.
People who know Farhan,pray for him to recover.

2009-02-07T01:47:00.001+08:00

Finally I cried it all out,
Like I've never after so long.

Feeling a lot better ; D
I'm just a bit tired,and I'm feeling very...
sighs,

Now i understand,
That's why I said,every valentines day every year is unlucky to me.

goooodbye!
I will be changing link and privating this blog. ; D

2009-02-05T10:58:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling super down );
I'm trying my best,
I'll keep aching my heart to make it stop.

2009-01-31T00:06:00.003+08:00

有时候，哭，是我解决事情的方法。

My tears kept flowing,
when i think of it.
It was fine this morning,
until then,we laughed,smiled.

I don't dare to look back of how you said you love me,
that why I did silly stuffs to forget.
When would you notice,how much I hope you'll be yourself.
when you said you trust,do you actually?

My heart's crying,
My trust crashed,
My hopes went haywire,
My love cried.

You wanted my trust,but how am i suppose to,
when every time i trust so deeply,you crashed me and left me all alone,
I'm trying my best to make you quit,
to stop you from relying on it,
in the end,I got shouted at,I got attitudes.
I know I love you,yes i do,
you should know it too,
I've never done so much for a guy,
and then I'm all crash over again.

Leaving is easy for you,but have you thought of me?
You just left like that,and I'm all lost alone.
I went walking around,thinking of stuffs before i actually settled down.
You should have seen,how much tears i dropped for you.

I waited and waited for your reply,but none.
I kept telling myself,you're asleep.
I know,I'm childish,immature.
but have you ever thought,how much i changed already.

I know you're tired,
I'm sorry,
I stepped into your life.
I relied on you too much.
I believed in your promises too much.
I'm sorry )';

every time I'm tired back from school,I went to look for you,
trying my best not to sleep,to talk to you,to communicate,
I went back home late,slept late,woke up early,
the cycle continues,but you said I've not change.
If its in the past,I'll give attitude.

I'm not a robot that could change so easily,i need time.
When I said to you,that you need a change,
You couldn't change immediately ain't it?
You wouldn't even listen to what i explain.

You would listen to everybody except me,
when would you actually trust me.
you said you would love me forever,
I'll give up this part.
I know you're leaving me soon )':

You're always the right one,
I've no more comments.
I always thought being together is to understand what your partner needs at the time,
I guess,You regretted.
I'll never again(':
Sorry.

2009-01-25T23:23:00.002+08:00

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我们，能够维持到多久呢?

爱，到现在，我真的还不明白。
为什么，人，需要爱。
但，有时，换回来的，却是伤心与孤独。

我曾经，爱过，哭过，被伤害过。
我，甚至，还对感情有过恐惧。
但，刚在一起的时候，
你，对我说，
你不会和别的男生一样，
你会爱我，疼我，保护我，到最后。
因为，这句话，你所为我做的一切，
感动了我，麻木的心，慢慢的，也爱上了你，投入。

我不会忘记，你是怎么，慢慢的让我打开心结。
现在我，慢慢的让你回头。

知道你累了，
心好痛，就好像跌进了黑洞，却爬不出来。
我爱你，但也知道，自己不想勉强你。
我不想你对我的爱，只不过是一种表面上的爱。

我会一直守在你身旁，
知道吗，我不想再次被伤害，而，我对这份爱，期望好高。
现在，只能求老天爷，不会让你离开我。
而我，也不会再次强迫你留下来。
我真的很爱你。

Happy chinese new year to all chinese,
happy collecting red packets : D

2009-01-25T15:19:00.000+08:00

kept thinking and thinking of the words you said,
maybe you don't know how i felt at the point of time.

You were far too important,
that now,I'm hurt over and over.
but i still love you a lot.
tell me how,to erase this love away)':

2009-01-14T11:14:00.002+08:00

(';

I'm childish,I'm stupid,I'm useless,I'm bitch.
people criticize me please (';
and don't worry,I'll accept everything you all say.
so please criticize me.
I love people to criticize me!

2009-01-13T14:37:00.002+08:00

I'm in a super bad mood,so people better don't provoke me now.

Damn it man,
feeling bloody sick luhs,
I won't bother even a single thing anymore,
how much i care,bother,listen will only bring to scoldings and blamings.

I'm trying so bloody hard already,
still fail and fail,
damn it man,I need someone badly.

yeah,Josephine and weixuan are out, ;DD
miss them loads,they messaged my number which are specially only for them to know.
hahaha,so was messaging and messaging,until,balance low -.-
meet up sooooooon,I miss you all a lot! ;DD
they listened to my nonsense again just now when I was super pissed off.
haahahaa! and they told me something something, { secret }
so we decided to do something something for someone ;DD

my baby hamsters crawled around the cage just now,haha!
they dont walk on fours,but they crawled with their tummy,super cute duhs,
found out once they smelled cheese,they'll crawl around :l
am i cruel or what.zz

yeahs,I'm gonna do my homework soon i guess :l
byeeeeeeeeee i still owe lots of teachers homework : D

2009-01-10T12:42:00.002+08:00

我还以为,我们已回到了从前.
现在发现自己太笨,太蠢,也已经太迟了.

我想了一整天,可能这就是爱吧.
还是她们所谓的兄弟情吧。
可能，你对我，根本没了爱，没了信任，没了忍耐，没了坚持。
可能，我还没发现你和我慢慢的从情人，变成了，亲人。
现在就算我不在你身边了，你都已不在乎了。
要怪，就得怪我，蠢，笨，
天真的以为，我们还是我们，
到最后，你还是要我改，要我不做我自己。

现在，只能怪我自己，当初，为什么，爱，得那么深。
只能怪我自己，当初，为什么，信，得那么多。
我不想再次体会到爱带给我的痛，明白吗？

我不再渴望，不再希望。

2009-01-06T22:55:00.001+08:00

I'm super fucking down right now,
feeling very useless cause of stuffs D':

sighs,forget it leave it to fate.
school was great with darlings around,but the fucking thing is,I couldn't sleep at night,
so I felt super tired,kept forcing myself to stay awake cause of my promise to baby,
so whenever school end,baby came and fetch me,I'll be showing attitudes.
sorry baby D':

I guess I won't be going school tomorrow,
I need to chiong chinese holiday homework,
because,I didn't get the paper until today,tomorrow need hand up D:

I dislike sleeping in the study room,although it has air con,but no choice,my hamster,waffle gave birth,so the baby hamsters can't stand cold and I cannot switch on air con to sleep D:
so I am currently sleeping in the study room..
gahs,
hope those hamsters grow up quick,
I think I want to keep them for myself,but keeping them,my expenses baboom already ):
I'll try bahs,see first luhs,
I'm going up le,byebyes.

stupid family.

2009-01-02T22:11:00.001+08:00

was having difficulty to sleep yesterday,
some friends know that once holidays ends,school starts i can't sleep like for 1 week. -.-
so around 5 called baby,went bathe called baby again.
Then prepared and all,waited for baby to message me to leave house.
went meet baby,ate the breakfast that baby made for me :D
Then waited till Meiyi messaged me,then parted with baby and then went to meet darlings.

Lessons was fine,except that I felt like sleeping a lot. -.-
damn bloody tired.but didn't cause ,I, the clever one promised baby I wouldn't sleep in class like last year anymore.
I, also being the clever one,promised baby I'll score well for my N level. :l
so listened to Mr Chua's nagging,while I kept drawing,wrote a bit on my "diary"
and then recess,ate and one mother pubor caught all of our appearance. -.-
and then waited for time to pass,school end,met baby outside school gate,went baby house :D
after that blahblah.. -.-
I don't want to elaborate,cause I'm effing tired. -.-
ok,I'm off to bathe and then sleeeeeeeeep :l
goodnight!

2008-12-30T02:33:00.002+08:00

I don't trust anymore.

Hello,I can't seem to sleep,that why I'm blogging here.
Have been updating at my private blog instead of this,

I'm waiting for time to pass,to meet baby in the morning,he wants me to reach his house at 9AM,
said there's something he want to discuss with me about.

I fucking hate some bitches right now,
asshole,shouldn't have trusted you.
Told you mostly everything,
except for stuffs between baby and me and my family stuffs.
end up you bloody asshole did this to me.
forget it man.
I'll stop trusting others also.
nobody I would confide in anymore,I'll confide in my book. -.-

gah,I'm worried cause of something.
shit you lahs. >:l
hais,

I'll be removing tagboard next time.
I feel like deleting this bloody blog. -.-
ok never mind,I'll try to sleep,
if not my nose will become big cause i promised baby.
byebye :l

2008-12-28T03:15:00.000+08:00

I'm tired but I can't sleep,
I'm trying to distract myself )':
you would never know how hurting it is right now for me.
I'll never trust love ever again.

Made me hope,
Made me fell.
Made me love,
Made me hurt.
Made me laugh,
Made me cry.
Made me miss,
Made me distract.

I'll never trust anymore. )':
I understand.

2008-12-28T01:11:00.002+08:00

I've nobody to turn to ):
because,I understand now,maybe things between him and I should never be told to anyone.
but you know,I'm feeling very awful ):

My heart just aches and aches,
maybe time would heal these pain,
day by day,
every actions made me feel paranoid towards you.

I relied on you far too much in the past.
Now,I'm trying so hard,to stop.

2008-12-26T03:32:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling superb down,
these days a lot things kept coming back to me.
especially memories of my past childhood.

Now,I simply hate my family. ):
No wonder,I just feel so .. -.-

I fucking hate some bitches,
who uses blog to find communications. -.-
you know who you are luh,
childish man,as if the person would help you if you have problem.
hypocrite.

I also fucking hate some bitches who flirt with people,
through friendster or stuff,
simply asshole.
someone knows who I'm talking about

Unhappy,come find me,talk straight to my face,
I'll be super glad to talk to you.

don't know why,these people still have such childish thinking,
snatch away people's stead.
asshole!

and and MEIYI mouse,cheeeerup!
we're having the same problems,so anything tell me oks. (:

gahhs people,my phone low in balance,stop spamming my inbox.
bye!

2008-12-25T03:42:00.002+08:00

Just some love,some care,some concern,some trust,
is what a relationship needs.

I'm bored.Yes.
I'm gonna sleep soon,
very the tired -.-

Talked to baby about problems,cried,felt a lot better.
Because I don't have anyone i could trust enough to talk to about these matters.
I'll gonna be a strong girl,
and face it positively I try :l

and Please do not contact me during these period of time until i blogged and says you can.
because my fucking prepaid is low -.-
wait till i top up,anything leave a offline message for me in msn,don't worry i never ever switch off my com -.-

I wish we could stay this way,
love you(:

2008-12-23T04:00:00.000+08:00

I don't know anymore,
distancing myself away.

I wish I could have someone to talk to right now,someone to cry to. ):
I'm trying my very best to distance myself away,
I don't know,but don't anyone understands how much it hurts?

I miss a lot of stuffs but I guess what's gone is gone,
I won't brood over it,
I would have to try not to miss it,
I would have to try not to bother,
I've given up on every hope.

truth struck me,
I've nobody by me.
Really hurting to see everybody leaving one by one,
but what hurts the most was seeing you distance yourself away from me over and over.

No more care,
No more concern.
I ain't worthy of anything.

I wished there's someone to talk to right now,
someone i could really trust.
but I pushed everyone away before,
cause I assumed I would and could confide in you forever.

Tears ran dry,
Heart went numb,
I don't understand,why do i deserve everything like this.
I've enough of people leaving me,hurting me.
If only you understood how much i love you.
Every little inch i moved away,hurts my heart directly.
I treated everything as things lower than your status in my heart,
but I deserve nothing better.

I tried,so hard that I fell harder.
every truth I know,
made me understand,
no point brooding over the past.

Before that I was your first priority,
do you know how insecure i felt now,
when all i feel was,I'm now in the last.
Friends and family are the more important ones.
I gave up my family for your sake,
Gave up most of my friends,
end up,I don't deserve anything of your love.

I understand,we wouldn't be the same every again,
forever i will feel this hurt you would keep implicating on me,
I won't hope anymore,
I don't want to fall over and over again.
If only you understand,for all these 15 year,
its the first time I love someone so deeply that,
no matter how he treats me I would never leave.
The pain ain't on my body,
but in my heart.

How I miss those nights with you calling me,
How I miss those days where you'll never let me walk alone.
now,I've to find you everyday,traveling alone in taxi and all,
now,I've to face pain myself.
now,I've to endure everything myself.
You wouldn't know how much,how hard I'm trying,
to keep you happy.

I thought,we wouldn't be like my past.
I thought,you wouldn't be like my mother.
I trusted that you won't,
but somehow,you did.
I won't leave,
I'll just keep numbing my heart till I feel nothing anymore.

now,whenever I'm feeling down you won't bother,
you went off to sleep,
Now,you would switch off your phone and ignore me.
No more trust from you.
you know how hurt i feel right now,
every time you shouted at me,
I've to beg and beg,make you smile,and I'll hide in my room when I'm alone and cry it all out.
I'm not strong like how you see me as,
I'm weak.
I have never thought you would hurt me like this,
I've trusted you far too much,love you way too deep.
Now my heart won't linger to any thoughts anymore.
I'll let it lay asleep,
I'll not whine anymore,
just let it be,
if you really love me,
you wouldn't leave me again,
leave it to fate.

2008-12-22T17:07:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling a bit better after crying to sleep yesterday(:
feels superb to be able to cry like how you want to cry.

so my mood is back again,
but i had a weird dream yesterday,gahs,hope it won't happen lahs.
i'm going to watch twilight today. -.-
alright bye.
i go watch tv already

2008-12-22T00:02:00.002+08:00

When you're really in love with someone,
you would accept the person flaws no matter how bad it is.

God I'm feeling super down,
I need time to clear up pieces of my heart once again.
Been having weird instincts these days and I dreamt of it just now.

Who wouldn't want to be love,
Who wouldn't want to feel being love,
Who wouldn't want to feel being love,loved.
but didn't know its that hard.

Been taking medicines to control my temper,feelings.
Till today,feeling weird inside me,
thoughts all rushing to me,feeling afraid of everything.
I'm trying my very best,yet it seems like it ain't working.

I'm feeling as though,I've a lot to say,but I'm controlling it.
I'm feeling as though,I can't seem to breathe anymore.
I'm feeling as though,I ain't myself anymore.
I'm feeling as though,I'm falling over again.
I'm feeling as though,there's a bigbig rock pressing against my chest.
I've no body to talk to,no body to cry to,no body to understand me.
Have that in the past,since then,I'm all alone.

Now I've to cry in silence all alone,
I've to suffer everything,humiliation,anger,sadness and all alone.
Now I've to try and try my very best,
Even my best sisters laughed at me.

I don't know who to turn to anymore,
The one I love the most,trust the most,hope the most,ain't the same anymore.
I've kept to myself except to confide in him,
now I've nobody to confide to,
nobody to wipe my tears and tell me everything's ok.
Now I see no point in living,no point in doing anything.
I don't understand,I tried my best for everyone's sake,
but now when I needed someone,nobody's here for me.
Yes,I wanna cry it all out,I wanna say it all out,
but whose here to listen?

I've never understood anything at all,
I wanted just some care,wanted just some love.
I ended up getting nothing.

I'm feeling very tired right now,
I'm giving up all my last hopes on curing that sickness of mine.
I'm avoiding doctor's call.
I'm not me anymore.
I'm acting as a person whose not me.
Tired of acting in front of peoples but what could I do?
I'm sick and tired of eating medicines just to control myself.
I'm sick and tired of being somebody whom I don't want to be.
I wanna be back myself again,
I've once swear i would never change myself for anyone,
reprimanded friends for changing themselves for people,
end up,I am changing myself thoroughly right now.

I wanna cry it all out,
someone please listen to me):
sheesh,I'm never gonna be myself again.

2008-12-20T17:50:00.002+08:00

My baby ain't up yet.
Don't know why thinking about lots of stuffs,
really hope its not the way how i think of it. ):

I need to occupy myself to stop thinking,
gosh. ):

2008-12-20T15:02:00.002+08:00

BOOOOOS.
I wanna watch twilight but baby is still sleeping):
I'm bored waiting for baby to wake up.

Yesterday slept around 4plus then woke up at 12.
I'm seriously tired. ):
never mind I'll wait for baby. :(

2008-12-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

Went hospital for some reasons luhs only some knows.
Hms got through it,6 more to go,
but the risk is getting higher and higher.

Went met Meiyi mouse to chat about stuffs,
yeaps long time since I chat and met up with her,
Mouse meet me soon again : D

Then went ate with baby went his house,
baboom time passes so fast and baby sent me home.

I wanna watch twilight with baby ):
I wonder if tomorrow we could watch :x
hehs,alright night night I'm going off to sleep (:

2008-12-18T22:22:00.002+08:00

I'm super super downnnnnnnnnnnn. )':
been trying to occupy myself to stop thoughts for rushing in,
but I failed,failed badly.

I just wished just for your spare time for me.
but now there ain't any single minute for me anymore.
guess I've to go alone tomorrow.
you said you want to go with me,but guess I've to go alone.
If I say,I'm really afraid right now would you even bother? )':

I wished I still stood a place in your heart.
I wished you still love me that much.
I wished you would never have changed so much.
I wished for just once more.
I wished we both never changed.
I wished I was healthy.

seriously feeling very very afraid right now,
have to undergo so long of pain alone tomorrow.
some more if my body rejects it,I...
forget it,its fate after all,I've no more held backs in life anymore anyway.
I'm trying my luck for myself.
In the past,I tried so hard just for your sake,now I'm left alone. (':
If it fails,then so be it.
I won't be switching on my phone tomorrow till I've finished the session.
Yeah right,I wished and wished you would be beside me,this way I won't feel so pain with me.
At least I'm secured,but now,I guess I've to really go myself. (':

I miss everything,
someone talk to mmmmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I'm feeling super down )':
I wanna cry it all out,
I've enough of suppressing it within me )':
I really need some hugs,I really need some sound.
I don't wanna be aloneeee.
I really am afraid from things that would happen tomorrow,
I said I don't mind I'm fine,In fact I'm really afraid within me ):
someone,anybody talk to me,make me laugh,
maybe its the last time I could laugh ):

I took my second step,
bit by bit,my heart freezes.

2008-12-18T20:50:00.003+08:00

Texted with Meiyi mouse,yeaps feeling fine after that.
We're both strong girls,we wouldn't cry.Right?
only she understands how I feel,only she know why i feel like that.
Both in the same situation,she's the best best best friend of mine,because only she will understands.

So i guess I won't be contacting anyone unless they contact me of course.
Now all I want to think of is my future.
great,

I'm sorrrrrrry.

2008-12-18T11:29:00.003+08:00

When the tears flows,
My heart numbs.
Every time the tears flows,
I would give up a little bit of hope.

You once said you would never ever,
but you still did yesterday.
When it came right down,
Its not my face that hurts but my heart.
You're the person i really wished i could be confiding into.
but somehow both of us,it ain't the same anymore.
the love,between us,its fading bit by bit.
now we're so far a part.

Kept crying and crying,when the scene replayed and replayed.
Kept wishing and wishing,when we both quarreled.
you once said you'll always be the person to hold on to me,
where's that promise gone to?
you were always by me till recently,
such drastic change.

I once told you,without you my life would never be the same,
I mean it,that why,when you keep giving up,i held on and on.
but would you ever know,
every time i held on and on,I'm giving up some of my hopes?
you once said,you would never let me return to the past,cause you ain't that kind of guy,
but every simple hurts you do,would hurt me in the future like it did in the past or even worse.
i don't know,both of us ain't the same anymore.
people laughed at us instead of being envied.

I cried till I can't cry anymore.
I laughed at myself.
I'm not who I am anymore.
I would never believed that you actually bear to,not for yesterday.
really hurt right into my heart.

Really hope you'll just understand me,
Really hope you'll still be the person i love.
Really hope we didn't change.
I believed in miracle.
but now,i know even miracle can't help us.
seriously don't know how anymore.
I've kept trying and trying,but every solution doesn't even please you.
I've ran out of solution,just to keep in silence.
let your words hurts over and over again.

cried till it dried up,
maybe I've made my first step.

2008-12-17T07:56:00.002+08:00

yawns didn't sleep ._.
Very the tired.
Just finished cooking for baby -.-
I miss him like... -.-
gahhs never mind baby say he'll hug me to sleep : D
heh heh heh,
I'm gonna go bathe now and then cab to baby's house.

yawns my baby is sleeping like a pig. -.-
and I'm here tired.
ass uhs,hehs never mind forgive him,cause I told him to sleep :l
okoks,I'll post later. :}

2008-12-16T00:07:00.002+08:00

Backtracking of stuffs is really...
tiring,and disappointed.

In this life,I've been betrayed lots of time by love,friends and close sisters.
To me,Feelings and relationships with people is oh-so important.
That why I don't mind if people make use of me,But I dislike it.
Until a certain point of time,I'll flare up and poooof everything's gone.
Seriously don't know why there people who's childish enough to forsake and make use of people who are seriously by them.
I've walked through lots of love,got hurts lots of time,kept trying to learn from my lesson,but somehow in every relationship I kept making mistakes.Been the one who would hold and hold until some day I've thought it through and let go.
Sisters,have been believing there's this explanation of really close human,walked through lots of time,saw make users,backstabbers and liars.Learned from my mistakes,forsake those who once thread onto me,and keeping those true ones.
When people ask,what makes you so sure that you've been keeping the right friend,I would answer,because I experienced too much sadness,and now,I'm trying my best to make myself happy,to understand and believe in my own choice,so until now,I've been kept the best.
Happy 5th year Liran!
Happy 5th year Ethan!
Happy birthday DES kor!
Love you all.

Happy birthday to you~
happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to Des~
Happy birthday to you~
hope you enjoy this birthday. (:

ahhhhhhhhhhh I'm hungry. -.-
anyone buy me fooooood. -.-
cause I can't go out..zzz

I don't know what to post,but baby i love you. (:

2008-12-14T18:29:00.002+08:00

Happy 8th months baby!
Gone through lots of things,
Quarrels,tears,shoutings,loves,cuddling up,hugs and all.
We've went through really a lot,
we've given up at some point of time but we still got back together.
realized I can't do without you baby,
You were the person who made me laugh,brought me out of my past and stuffs,became more cheerful than the past,understands how love feels and all.
Made me want a real forever.
Baby,I love you many <33
we still have lots of days ahead!
Have been a really imperfect girlf,but I'll try my best to change.

2008-12-14T02:46:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling very weak right now,
as though the next moment,I'll be gone.
Don't know,I've so much to say,I ain't prepared to leave ):

Meiyi,mouse,cheerup,I'm still here for you,we're both in the same situation so i understands how you feel,I'm always your personal listener till i collapse alright?Best best friend.

Liran,Mei,cheerup,I'll be strong,don't worry about me.If anything happen,I'll inform you.

Ethan,silly kor,I know you're worried,Don't worried le,I'll try my very best de,anything happen I will contact you.

Jiajun,Thank you for being by me for these two years though i hurt you a lot,but thanks anyway for always being by me.Thank you for being such a great friend.

Baby,I've a lot to say to you.I'm sorry for the way i treated you in the past.I know I implicated a lot of hurt on you that why you became to numb yourself.Baby,I really love you a lot.You would never ever be replace by anyone,you were always by me,you were always the person who listened to me in whatever problems i have.You were my most trusted one.I promised I'll strive on to live for you,I'll try.
I want a forever,I want our 1st year chalet,I want our promises,I want our love to become stable.Baby,You've suffered a lot being with me,I know,we always quarrels because of misunderstandings and small stuffs,but i would never forget all those things you did for me.
The first month,that video really made me cried.
The second month,That photo album means a lot to me.
The third month,That shirt and photo frame means a lot.
The fourth month,That clay model you made really made me knew how much effort you put in.
I'm really happy to have you as my love.
I'm sorry I made you suffered so much of pain in you when you're with me,
I know I kept leaving in the past,but i really want to say,I'm sorry i hurt you but I was just thinking a lot.
Baby,we've been through lots of things,You made my life cheerful,even my friends said so.
I ain't that unhappy me anymore,instead I looked a lot happier when I'm with you.
I'll never forget how we first met,how we first messaged,how we first got together,how we first kissed,how we first hugged,how we first held hand,how you sent me home the first time and stuffs.You've been really tolerant with me,I've no regrets anymore baby.
I just hope you won't forget me.
I love the way you hug me,
I love the way you kiss me,
I love the way you care for me,
I love the way you lend me your shoulders to lean on,
I love the way you listen to my problems,
I love the way you smile,
I love the way you look silly,
I love the way you act cute,
I love the way you made me smile,
I love you :}

I hope i could continue on,
I hope for lots of things,
I hope I could still confide in you with my problems,
I hope you would wipe those tears away for me,
I hope you'll assure me once again,
I hope You'll secure me once again,
I hope you'll say you love me once again,
I hope you'll always be mine,
I hope you'll never shout at me again,
I hope I've the forever with you,
I hope we're still that loving as before,
I hope i could rely on you,
I hope you could confide in me,
I hope we'll trust again,
but how much time do I have left to complete all these :'{
I'm really trying my best for you,
But whenever the pain throbs me,I hope you were there to take care of me,
Whenever My breathe seems to be stopping I hope you were there,
I hope you were there when I fainted,
I hope you were there when I fell,
I hope we were still the couple whom they envied.
I've no more time left.
Baby,we've really been together for a long time,we've gone through everything.
I love you,forever.

A thread of breath is really important to me,
for your sake.

2008-12-13T03:57:00.002+08:00

I'm tired but can't sleeeep.
Damn it man,Having throat infection,vomited blood just now. -.-
oh gosh,tell me what's more for me.

Nobody to entertain me,
everybody went to bed when they said they would entertain me ):
I've nothing to do.
And that ass Ethan didn't contact me,smack your butt!

Damn it man,I'm feeling super unwell,
I'm feeling tired,
I'm feeling disappointed.

Liran ahhhs,don't worry about me okays?I'll be fine fine fine! : D
listen to your mama ah,she really worried about you,remember you promised me you won't go back to the past de ahs,must listen to me,hao bu hao.
anything tell me uhs,don't come find me le,I'll find you all one day (:
I promise. Love you lots!

Ethan,you silly kor kor shut up! :X
heh heh,smack you already lorhs,kuku!
Tell you after work contact me liaos,ass you man.
i don't want meet you lahhhhs,don't miss you :p
heh heh joking joking,will go down find you all de.
with loves.

Baby I MISS YOU!
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRS.
I MISS YOU BLOODY LOTS,
and you went to sleep without a goodnight):
anyway goodnight baby,
goodnight readers(:

2008-12-13T01:01:00.002+08:00

Hehs,In the process of thinking if I should go for treatment.
I know,Lots of people tried their best making me happy,Shall gratefully say thank you : D
Though some of you all don't know what happened,but you all still asked me to take care and stuffs.

Special thanks to,
Mervin,
Jiajun,
Jiahui,
Meiyi,
Liran,
Ethan,
Fangxian,
Weixuan,
Weixuan's mother,
Josephine,
Des,
WenKai,
and MOST IMPORTANTLY BABY.

yeaps really appreciate it,
Baby's right,I should try,even if there's only low percent at least i tried,everyone will be upset and disappoint if i collapse without even trying.should give myself a chance.
But the only problem is,
It is really expensive,and I really scared if I collapse in the end,It'll be wasting money. :l
But Ethan and friends assured me,money problem no need think,
they'll try their best to pay for it :l
How can i thank them,
BUT let me think awhile more can? :3

won't have regrets,I have baby walking through with me.
And all those who care,at least I know who's true.
really disappointed when I saw what she wrote?
Best sisters?shouldn't trust at all.
but yeaps didn't regret at least,I've special moments with you all :l
Xian and CO,thanks a lot,but i guess I won't want to be made use anymore.
No point keeping friends like that.

yeah,people make me happy happy :D
I'll strive on for baby's sake,for baby and my future and friends : D
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,
I miss yooooouuuuuuuuuu! ):
Baby I missssss youuuuuuu!
rahhhhhs byes!

2008-12-12T21:00:00.002+08:00

Booooooooooo. ):
Feeling kinda down but cheered up a bit.
Was telling my maid stuffs about mother,
Feel kinda burden lightened abit?
Listened to advice and yeaps,don't regret : D

I don't know,my palms sweating,My heart beat skips very fast,I feel like vomiting.
gah gah gah,
I have to thank Liran,Ethan,Des,Weixuan's mother,Wenkai,Fangxian,Josephine,Josephin mother for paying $7000+ for something and lending me $6000+ .
Not for them maybe something would have happen.{I'm not telling}

Yeaps,I'll strive longer.
Anyway Ethan contact me when you see this,I wanna get my report,my baby wanna see it >.<

Meiyi says my post always very long.
You all readers must say her liaos if not I next time post HI only. -.-
lols,anyway thank you MEIYI for always listening to me : D
heh heh,chat with her just now,feeling a bit better :p

Yeaps and I want to say,I love my BABY! :3
I want vivo vivo vivo! ):
alright byebye! heh.

2008-12-12T01:57:00.002+08:00

我们从新开始,
Baby thank yous :}
I think baby is asleep :l
Going out with baby tomorrow,so I guess I'm sleeping soon at 4 am,
waiting for baby's reply until 4.

I'm basically very angry at something.
BEN CHONG,
when the fuck did I become your girlfriend?
When the fuck did I say I'll be your girlfriend?
When the fuck did I say I like you?
When the fuck did I say I want you?
Stop spreading those fucking annoying things la oks.
I'm NOT your girlfriend.I have a boyfriend,yes,but its not you,its SOO WEN JIE.see it?
There's so much of difference in it.
And I'll NEVER EVER be your girlfriend be it if I'm single or not.
See this?Your acts just show me that you're a dog.
And If I've ever like you,I'll bang my head against the wall,let the lorry smashed over me.
Go look how buang your face looks like,another lorry smashed face.
I seriously don't like all this lahs,you cannot understand simple english ahhhhhs.
Need me translate for you?
If I ever in my life want you,I swear I'll jump off the highest building in the whole world.
I seriously warn you uhs stop stuffing words in my mouth that I've never say before,I'll never ever say in my whole lifetime.
Don't beg for forgiveness,I won't.
Fuck off man.

Ayes ayes I miss my baby:{
Thanks for all those who concerned about me,
especially Jiajun,Jiahui and Junxiang : D
byes. anyway do the poll.

2008-12-11T18:06:00.003+08:00

I've been thinking a lot,feeling very empty inside me.
Friends ain't here,love ain't here.
So I'll rely on something to keep me going.

Ethan and Liran ,please don't scold _ _ _ _ _ _ _.
you all should know who,I begged him to give me de.
This is the only solution i can be happy.
I never blame you all cause i know you all working no time pei me,you all need to support family,
but i really feel very xinku walking alone you know,
every time i pain that time i thought of him,but i know i cannot force him so i thought of you all but you all working.
That why,i have to rely on all these to be happy,to feel like I'm flying and all.
no point de,sooner or later also will gone de,so i take also no point.
i know you all tried your best to stop me from thinking le,but no use de,I alone at home keep thinking and thinking.I really very afraid you know.
every time i feel dizzy and collapse,i told myself I've to stand up for the sake of my family,friends and him,i even lied to some of them its asthma luhs.
you know how hurt it feels to know that you have it but you can't tell it not.
I really afraid I can't take it anymore le,I'm afraid of a lot of thing,you all say to give him time,but i keep thinking,if these few months give time le,end up one day i collapsed le,and he still haven't forgive me,I'll regret a lot de.but i still give him time,i really don't want to force anyone.
Now i really feel super down you know,i and him going 8 months in a few days le,but i..
hais,sorry,I really cannot take any pain le.You all say must be happy happy,how to be happy?
Nobody to make me happy.so I've to use these methods to make myself happy.I know you all will disappointed,after work saw this call me,I really got a lot to say )':

I'm really afraid to die,once i die,I'll lose him forever,lose all my friends.
but if I die,I can stop all the pain,all the suffers.
I don't know,I only know,I've only left a few months with him and my friends,but none of them are here to walk through it with me )':
I'll walk it through myself.
When i collapse,the most biggest thing I regret was to hurt my love..

2008-12-11T14:33:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling super down ):
Chat with Ethan around 3plus,cause Liran and friends went settled stuffs mahs.
So was like telling him a lot of things,cried while saying.
Ethan said" Trust that he stills love you or Lie to yourself that he stills love you."
I said,"then I'll trust and lie"
After around 4plus going 5,Liran called in to conference.
Told me that everything was settled,
the first thing i said was" got whack him until pig face not."
zzz,they both laughed.
They told me something but i feel irritated so didn't talk.
After that was feeling super down again cried,
They heard me cry,keep ask me why,
end up Liran cried also ._.
Ethan scolded Liran..zz,so liran stopped crying.
she said"darling,don't cry anything I'm here for you,if you cry i also will cry de lehs"
I said" orh."
so i stopped but minutes after start again.. -.-
was feeling super super down,
then talked to them,confided,cries,and then they panicked. -.-
because i called _ _ _ _ _ _ _.
They thought i want take stuffs again..zzz.

So chat and chat until i fell asleep then they went sleep also,
now super down can,but Ethan and Liran working,cannot pei wo. ):
someone call me cann..
I don't want to sit here alone to think ):

anyway,Jiajun and Jiahui don't worry,I'm fine still can take it, (: anything I will call you all de. (:thanks.
I'll trust and lie}

2008-12-11T01:17:00.005+08:00

DOGS ARE TO BE KILLED.

Ben,
I officially says you're not even fit to be my friend.I always treat you as kor,so these years what you said I treat like brother and sister love.Until recently you tell me everything.
Ben ah Ben,You go remember what I say before can.
I warned you all before le,Whoever dares to do stupid things to my stead or what you all can prepare funeral le right?
You think I joking de ahs,yes,You always listened to all my craps,I treated you as my korkor that why.You got go think or not,why i avoid you after you tell me about your feelings?
I lashed harsh words on you and then you kept asking Liran all about my fucking things.

That time got one time I quarrel with my stead,you come here say you don't mind being a substitute,I warned you already right.You deserve that beating man,seriously.
You know me so long should know what kind of person am I de.
I don't like people to use such underhand methods to get love right?
Forget zixian the incident already ah?
You fucking lucky Liran and Ethan plead for you la horh.

This time,I tell you wu ji kaka lai already.Because I can't stand you already,I tried my best to keep this friendship but you keep doing things to make me hate you know.
Very fun ahs plot with zhikai all.
Knn,know we buey ngam with them jiu find them act lahs.
Please lahs you go ask them why they say out lorhs,go ask them kena whack fun a not.
I tell you,confirm you would be worse than them de luhs.
Mastermind mah,I trusted you so much that day also.fuck you

I know lahs you jealous right,my baby handsome and cuter than you.Go look in mirror how buang you are lahs.Substitute,you now then know me ahs,I don't do substitute lah horhs.
some more go think,a dog suited to be a substitute not.
So buey gan,go ask yourself every time got daiji ask who help.
Got go think why I ask Liran all don't care about your stuffs already not.
You think what because I want avoid you that why I tell them don't help you ahs.
Your daiji every time very childish one then make big,talk big some more then tell us help.
We who sia,superman ahs,can mind about your business so much is it?

I fucking had enough of you already lorhs,I say before,want make me can,you fucking don't make till my family,friends and stead right.
Ask Zhikai they all threaten me with my family and stead huhs?
You think I so stupid won't go find them one mehs?
Go use brain think man,arbo go install a brain.

Love someone is like that get de mehs,you still don't understand what I say that time uhs.
You fucking like one super glue can,keep asking my things,you got what rights sia?
You ask my stead de things think I don't know ah,I keep quiet only leh.
My patience reach the limit le,if never whack you till your parents don't know you My name not JORINE PANG LEE YIE.
Don't need hide de,We can find you one(:
Take care you this asshole.

Tag replies
Meiyi,hahaha you know MOOMOO cute jiu hao,ehs we cry together ahs,set le,got a lot thing want tell you man. ):
and what zhumoo...zzz.

Mervin,Bbq mervin wont be nice man,it taste like bitter? -.- chaotah lehs.zz anyway thanks for cheering me up man(: heh heh.

Jiahuat,lols daddy,so its a _ _ _ thats why jiajun scared right ahaahahaha.

Jiajun,hahaha i also never say animal. -.- hahaha you afraid of MOOOOMOOOO

Jiale,hehes,you won't tickle me sky fall already lahs,anyway thanks lols,its obvious you will tickle me because you "crossed fingers"

Shimin,oh thanks.

Edna,wah lose my link..superb cannot lose my link le uhs(: take care too

Yanrong,lols thanks,yeaps nobody like to see others frowning thanks(:

Kenneth,thanks.

Liran,chill man,insider's job.we'll rip his ass off, anyway your blog de superb accurate man,hahaha.Love you most(:
And Ethan of course if not he'll nag.

I LOVE BABY(: the superb most.
heh heh.

2008-12-10T03:53:00.003+08:00

When I kept every stuffs you gave,looking at them my heart feels the pain.
I've been trying very hard but you ignored.
Maybe this is fate,I'll never forget.

After a few hours,I'll be giving you back all your stuffs.
This will be the last step,I tried to amend it,but you won't budge.
Taking my strength alone it won't work.
You've been unhappy,maybe now,with your new her,you'll be happy.

I've given up,I don't want to waste your time anymore,
but I'll still wait,I promise.
I swear with my life.
If one day you need me,I'll be here like how i promised.

I love you,goodbye.
I freed my hand and watch you run away.
Thank you,for this ~~love~~

2008-12-09T22:07:00.003+08:00

现在心情好差.
真的好想你,还不知要等几天.
回想过去多开心的我们.
可是现在呢?
发简讯给你也不回,想听听你的声音却不敢,
害怕你下一秒的话就会说“我们分手吧。”

才第一天,
吃，又吃不下。
睡，有睡不着。
只能一直，这样呆着，回想过去来安慰自己.

我一直希望，你起码会和我联络，但，似乎好相你没了我也没关系.
自己的脑却一直胡思乱想.
有个种不同的画面。
你是否已爱上了别人？

心好痛，告诉自己不能哭，
但，还是哭了。
哭了一整天，还是哭。

到了这种地步，他们叫我做好最坏的准备。
但我不肯。
至少活在自己的谎言中没比面对现实更痛苦.

真的，很希望你会回到我身边。
但我不会强迫你，
明天就是第二天了，不知该怎么面对痛.
真的好希望,你会回来.

hais,I don't even know if he's reading my blog.
seriously feeling very down now,
Tomorrow going checkup again,
same condition again,hais.
Now I rather i don't go,but the doctor called.
BIG INJECTIONS looking for me):
never mind,shall see how,thinking of reasons to push it away.

2008-12-09T20:41:00.000+08:00

对不起,我爱你

I couldn't concentrate on doing anything just kept crying and crying.
Been hiding in my room the whole day,
I don't know what to do to occupy my mind.
I've been listening to this song from just now,
Been thinking about lots of stuffs,
stuffs from the very first time.

Waiting for your answer is really very painful,too painful for me to take,
but i'll wait.
Even if its the negative answer i won't blame you,you did your best.
Been looking through those stuffs you did for me,
I guess,its too late,but I'll just hope and pray for a miracle.

You've been really tolerant already,thanks.
I wished you all the best.

2008-12-09T19:15:00.000+08:00

sighs,mood ain't good.
Kept thinking about stuffs,teared until my eyes swollen . .
I feel dirty):

Thanks Ben for looking around for me.
Thanks Liran for comforting and sending me home.
Thanks Sam for sending me home.
Thanks Meiyi for listening(:

sighs,I'll leave it to fate already,done so much,think its time to leave it to fate bahs.
I only wish to say,the days we were together be it quarrels or what,it would always be part of my memories and it can never be replace.
Those days was the happiest days i'd ever had.
You meant more than anyone else.

I didn't expect we would have today bahs,2 straight days.
Today's the first day I'm going through without you,
and my heart hurts like fuck.
I'll respect your decision still bahs.
If you still reading my blog,please go read my private blog.

I don't have the mood to post anymore.
goodbye readers.

2008-12-09T14:46:00.000+08:00

Day 1 without you.

I feel like crying,anybody want to cry ? ):
Thought of lots of things,I made all this happen.
I made you hate me.
I made my family hate me.
I made my friends hate me.
Fine,now I'm all alone.

I gave up lots of things just to be with you,
I sacrifice something because of you yesterday.
I don't know,I've never ever understood you before.

Now I understand,how fake a forever is.
Even if it takes me a lifetime,I would never believe in it again.

Risked my life,went and pass the letter to you,
and then you told me you were at friend's house.
I kept my mouth shut.
No more comments.
I sacrificed something so big for you,and then you told me the next second,you were enjoying.
I left the letter at your doorstep,
something really important deep in my heart.
I'll throw it away,everything.

I forced you to say I love you to me,
I told you,even if its a lie,just tell me.
Let me lie to myself for another time.
You told me you still love me,
I believed.
Made me fell real hard when I knew the fact.

You told me you need time to think,
to think about us between,
and you ended up enjoying.
I shouldn't have,I shouldn't have sacrificed that something just to call you once.
I thought you would be worried but you weren't even worried.
Fine,I lost myself again this once.

Thank you _ _ _ for checking all the internet and then coming to find me.
Real thanks.

People my phone,I'll be switching off can continue message me,but it'll take time for me to reply.
I also will be shifting blog again I think.My private blog would be shift also.
sorry eh.

&I would never again.
I don't want to be awake anymore.
This pain is unbearable.

2008-12-08T19:50:00.000+08:00

After 7 months plus,walked through lots of ups and downs.
Hanged onto this love till now.
Said those forever.
In the end,we lose everything.

I'll take my leave,I won't pester you anymore.
I won't be sucha bitch,since you've said it,I'll just go.
I should never break my vow.
I'll erase it bit by bit.

I'll never ever forget how you treated me and stuffs.
I'll never forget how this love ends and start.
We've tried our best,no one is wrong but me.

I'll give it up then,
this heart it numbed too much,I'm suffering right now.
anyone wanna _ _ _ _?
there i goes,the only way to stop the pain.
To be high alone. (':

Take care and goodbye boy,
you were the perfect guy.
Its enough for knowing that I had you once.
& I love you)':

2008-12-08T18:22:00.000+08:00

I don't want to be that shameless bitch anymore,
If you want to leave just leave.
I've nothing else to say.

I've changed into someone,who can't talk freely.
I thought,you would always be there for me when I needed you,
When I cry I would have at least your shoulder to lie on.

This love,it changed,from love to still love,but worst.
This time I won't,I'll just wait to see if you'll contact me.
I've nothing more to say.

This love have been a great one,I spoiled it.
I made you gave up the love.
I'm the bad person.
I don't deserve any care.

So be it then,just believe in your own words,
If you think I treat you as "his" substitute,
I will never say a word anymore.

ahhhhhh anyone wanna cry with me)':
& love,in fact,i love you more than him.
its way too late.

2008-12-08T08:28:00.000+08:00

I could never be your perfect girl. (':

Have you ever wondered why i endured everything?
Have you ever wondered why i want to meet you early?
Have you ever wondered why i tried so hard over again?
No matter how you pushed me aside i still clinged onto you like one shameless bitch.

I tried my best to satisfied what you want of your girl,but it never seems to be enough
I could never be the girl you love.
You shouted at me,saying how wrong I was,
I admitted,I changed into this way,
ended up,I deserve the same thing back.

When I stayed up late without sleeping,when time ticks,I'll meet you,but you know,every time I stayed up,my breath would suddenly tied up.
When I said that I'm unwell,you did nothing.
Fine,wait till one day,I collapse in my room without anyone knowing,This would be the greatest news of all.

Ever since I've been together with you since day 1,I've meant everything on my promises.
I remember how we knew each other,how we first met up,how we got together,how we held hands,how we promised and stuffs.

I understand,This is part of life,pain and laughter I've to go through,its all about life,giving me more experience.I swear this,will be the last experience I ever wanted.
I would never love again.

Now I finally believe,what that fortune teller means,I'll always in disappointment,sad,depress,life which i can never escape.For whatever happiness I encounter will be a short one.I'll never ever be happy.

This time,I wouldn't be a bitch anymore.
Fine,I leave it to fate.
I tried so hard,to gain back your love,
boy,now i know,its too late.
Your once before love was perfect i swear(':

2008-12-08T03:19:00.000+08:00

I'm back posting,
I'll want to smack Liran's butt. -.-
For some reason lahs.

Went out around 8 plus,waited for baby outside my house,
went his house,and slept.
After that woke up,ate and watch la bi xiao xin,
and then Being a pig,I went back to sleep. -.-
After that woke up and then went pasar malam with baby,
Walked home,lols.

Meiyi,
mouse,cheerup I'll be here for you,I know the pain is unbearable,but you've to walk through it no matter how tough it is right?You still have friends,and you know i love you.hahaha
So anything can tell me,message me la,cause you know I always use com then you not online de right?
All your friends will walk through with you de,can contact me anytime man,when you start feeling down,message me,I'll make sure you don't go thinking again,
lols,remember ahs I'm here for you (:

ahhhh,I miss all my darlings ):
Didn't meet up for so long ler,Some sort of miss them :X
Especially Liran and Ethan. ):

I'll post tomorrow again,anyway,People click on my ads please, (:
If not I angry ahs :X
lols,goodnight (:

Baby,I miss you

6More days

2008-12-07T07:39:00.000+08:00

I'm tired,bored.
Not feeling quite well now,can't breathe properly. .
I really have to go take my asthma medicine soon man.
If not what if (touchwood) i collapse in my room. -.-

No mood,thinking about stuffs.
I wanna sleep,but I'm waiting till 8+ to bathe then to meet baby.
Practically because i miss my baby):
And He's sleeping like a log right now,
If he don't wake up at 8+,I'll kill him.
cannot blame lahs,I'm really tired):

My hamster run away,
My most beloved hamster,who would stand on two feet to follow your hand or food.
Marshmellow,walao i sayang him de most lehs,then he escape):
Hope he find bahs(:

Argh hungry..
zz,never mind i don't know what to post.
and Mervin,I made the chatbox le(:
Tag horhs

2008-12-06T14:02:00.001+08:00

I'm bloody moody right now.
Don't know why also,just woke up my mood like that already.
Dreamt of super bad things. ):

I don't know what to post also lehs,
post later,

2008-12-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

Hello,privated my blog cause my baby asked me to private it.
Therefore i created this new public blog,
cute blogskin ehs,find it for my xiaomooo.
hahahas and please relink(: